> Recent Entries
> Archive
> Friends
> User Info
> My Website
> previous 20 entries

July 5th, 2008

10:52 pm - My mom sucks at jokes....cocksucker!!douchebag!! I'm teaching my very old, computer illiterate mother how to post on livejournal because she wants to make one about nursing and her sad sad life. She thinks it will be entertaining. She's also babbling over my shoulder right now...oh well. She wants to post something but Hells Naw this is my blog, bitches. Current Location: Hell Current Mood: embarrassed

(unsuspecting town folk)

May 2nd, 2007

12:44 am - You're a vampire! My own brother, a goddamn, shit-sucking vampire. You wait 'till mom finds out. 40 Off-The-Wall Questions 1) What side of the heart do you draw first? right 2) Can you dive without plugging your nose? yes 3)What color is your phone? dark green 5) Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours? hmm I'm not sure...maybe Jensen Ackles...or I guess Desiree 6) Where are you right now? basement couch 7) How do you feel about carrots? They're good with ranch dressing. 8) How many chairs at the dining room table? hmm...like four...because we don't eat there 9) Who is the best Spice Girl? Posh, but I always had to be Sporty as a child 10) Do you know what time it is? 12:48 12) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator? call for help, start hyperventilating 13) What's your favorite kind of gum? Trident...preferably fruity flavor 14) T or F: All is fair in love and war? false, there is nothing fair about either 15) Do you have a crush on anyone? hmm. 16) Do you use words that you don't know the meaning to? I do, if I'm positive I'm using it correctly. 17) Do you like to sleep? No. It's a totally unnecessary waste of time. 18) Do you know which US states don't use Daylight Saving? Um. Not positive, but I think Alaska and Hawaii. 19) Do you know the song Total Eclipse of the Heart? Why, yes I do. I love that song. 20) Do you want a bright yellow '06 mustang? Is it free? Then sure. 21) What's something you've always wanted? hmm...tough...probably a time machine 24) Would you rather swim in the ocean or a lake? Ocean 25) Do you wear a lot of black? Definately. 26) Describe your hair. Right now: Shoulder Length. Jet Black. Pulled back in a bun. Long, piecy, Chin Length bangs. 28) Are you an adult? Yes. 29) Who is/are your best friend(s): They know who they are..Des, Erica, Sam, Amanda,Dilila, Katie.C 30) Do you have a tan? Not in the slightest. My skin's translucent. 31) Are you a television addict? Slightly. I like intelligent tv. 32) Do you enjoy spending time with your mom? Sometimes. Not currently though, No. 33) Are you a sugar freak? Not particularly. 34) What is your favorite movie? Harvey, Harold and Maude, Trainspotting, SLC Punk, Running with Scissors, Nightmare Before Christmas, Groundhog Day, The Lost Boys, Stand By Me, I Love You to Death, Big Trouble, The Invisibles, Hard Candy 35) What's your sign? Pisces 36) Where do you wish you were right now? Anywhere but Here 37) Who did you copy this from? Lily 38) How do you know them? She goes to school with me... 39) What brand of shirt are you wearing? umm Metallica...it's a ripped up old Metallica Concert T 40) What are your plans for the weekend? Do all my Senior Projects. See Spiderman 3 again. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Enter Sandman by Metallica

(2 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

April 19th, 2007

12:14 am - Well, 4 out of 5 doctors agree that I am actually insane.. So I decided I'm still too wired to go to bed. In my livejournal people notice that I mostly write about a dramatic crisises (spelling??) I'm having or what I'm watching, reading, or listening to at the time. I do this mostly because I don't like share or remember the boring details of my life. I only like to document the interesting things. But I write about entertainment, mostly because I like to go back and read my entries and see exactly what I was into at a certain time. I also like to shout out movies, shows or bands that i think are particularly fabulous...Today I'm writing to tell every little girl (or teenager) to watch the movie Hard Candy. It's a semi-horror flick that was made on an extrordinarily low budget....but it's one of the quirkiest, most well written movies I've seen in a while. Desiree and I were bored lst night while eating Beefaroni and decided to watch this movie, which I rented because It was nominated for a lot of Chainsaw Awards..we were pleasantly surprised..I watch a lot of bad horror movies and this was an unexpected gem. Synopsis: 14 year old girl meets 32 year old sex offender on the internet...they get together at a coffee shop then go back to his place..an impromptu photo shoot commences...you can now imagine what in actuality would happen in this situation...now forget it..she makes them screw drivers and spikes his...he wakes up tied to a chair...the predator becomes the prey...it's filled with amateur castrations, a dominatrix 14 year old, and some of the funniest dialogue i've ever heard.... (RENT HARD CANDY...I PROMISE I DON'T WORK FOR THE PRODUCTION COMPANY!) "That's that whole nature versus nurture question, isn't it? Was I born a cute, vindictive, little bitch or... did society make me that way? I go back and forth on that..." Current Mood: awake

(unsuspecting town folk)

April 18th, 2007

11:54 pm - I'd walk through hell for you.let it burn right through my shoes.these soles are useless without you First I'd like to say that we've probably all heard about what happened at Viginia Tech and it was awful. It makes me sick to my stomach that things like that happen in our world. I don't want to dwell on it, but the families of all the victims are in my thoughts. It's thy type of event that makes us all question our safety. So now for the lighter self centered news. This vacation week hasn't been exactly what i hoped for, but i have had a great time. i'm too tired to write about all the freaky shit that happened, but here's what i'm looking forward to for the remainder of the week... -sleeping late -seeing erikas (and seeing disturbia) -watching the new episode of supernatural with amanda -visiting with the noni -running the whole play maybe (??) -getting a passion fruit iced tea -seeing Circa Survive with Dilila -going on the T -playing Almost Famous at the McDonalds -getting my prom dress fitted -playing Kemp with Sam, KatieC, and Michael -seeing padre -finishing my Physics Final Paper -choosing between Taming of the Shrew, Macbeth, and Les Mis for my English assignment -working Saturday -TJ coming home from Florida -getting my phone back (I MUST FIND OUT HOW TO GET PICS FROM MY PHONE ONTO THE INTERNET SO I CAN POST ALL THE GOOD ONES I TOOK AT RETREAT) ( Yeah, I've never been much for weddings or anniversaries but I go to a funeral if I'm invited any day of the week Some people say that I sound strange, some say that I'm not right But I find beauty in this world every single night ) Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: Admit It! by Say Anything

(1 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

April 14th, 2007

02:13 am - Tension WTF?! So tonight was pretty boring, but it was just what I needed. I needed to relax. I crashed on the couch until about 5:30pm then i ate dinner with the famiglia. After dinner I checked my email and downloaded a bunch of random songs and made a mix tape. Then the rest of the night was spent watching a marathon of "What Not to Wear" with Sam and talking about prom. We're slowly realizing that we're the biggest losers on the planet. Then a bunch of the mom's from Tj's hockey team come over for an Arbonne party (sorta like a tupperware party, but lamer and with more alcohol). You see, Arbonne is a cheap Swiss version of Avon and my mom sells it to her friends so she can get a thirty percent off discount. I refuse to wear it, but baby boomers will buy anything to keep their skin from sagging. Me, Tj, and Sam hung out in the basement until they left. Like I said in a previous entry my life doesn't make for great stories, but I just felt better tonight than I have in a while. At school today I had boat loads of shit due, but since I got everything done, my study halls were spent making vacation plans with Katie Carney. This vacation I have vowed to go paintballing, ice skating, laser tagging (word?), and I'm determined to improve my skills with the Wii. I also wanna see Disturbia and make space on my wall for my new Trainspotting poster. So I also decided that I love Dr. Finberg my Physics teacher. All of last period was spent comparing different tours we'd seen. She saw Dylan, the Dead, and Tom Petty play together at the same venue. I can't even afford to get tickets to the Police...She may wear funny tights and be slightly unhinged, but I think she's hysterical. I'm gonna miss our musical debates when I graduate. Current Mood: satisfied Current Music: Excuse Me, Mister by No Doubt

(2 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

02:11 am - Bury me with my giant screen TV...it's the only thing that's been faithful to me... I took a nap this afternoon so now i'm totally wired...eh but i don't have to work til 3 tomorrow... I'm officially stoked for Jensen Ackles new movie. It's about a bunch of quirky people who work at a trendy sub shop...hmm basically my life at the Villa. Here's some spoilers for the movie...the dialouge's hysterical. I can't wait to see Priestly in action. ( The 90's are killing me. I shouldn't have done that. You're not supposed to tell a guy you're gonna kill him no more. I got to tiptoe through the tulips with these assholes. Taking all the fun out of the job. ) Current Location: my bed Current Mood: giggly Current Music: Sally Come Home by Army of Me

(unsuspecting town folk)

April 12th, 2007

11:18 pm - What's normal? Those damn Dawson's River kids, sleeping in each other's beds and whatnot? I am feeling so much better than I did this morning. My day kinda sucked, except for this brilliant play i saw at the stoneham theater with my class...it's called "I Have Before Me A Remarkable Document Given To Me By A Young Lady From Rwanda." I suggest everyone go see it. It was amazingly acted and emotionally touching, kinda sad though. Anyway...i finished my lab and my physics outline and my ap calc and my relig so i feel kind of relaxed knowing tomorrow is the last day before vacation. I'm gonna spend most of it sleeping and at drama...but it's still not school and thus I can have fun. So here's what I spent my day thinking about...a list of things I want to accomplish before going to college and thus I must do this summer. i think i can do at least half of it. -work at a record store -follow a band on the road for at least 3 gigs -meet Jensen Ackles -go on a cross country road trip with Sam (see world's largest yogurt cup) -go to Warped Tour with Des -learn Chemistry -work in a lab -finish my novel -read Franny and Zooey -rewatch entire first season of the X-Files -go to Washington state with Amanda (find Edward Cullen) -play Wii with Katie Carney -re-read all the Harry Potters including the new one -see a show at least once a week (even if they suck or it's at the YMCA) -sing for a band (at least one gig) -dye my hair more than one color and start wearing it down and curly -get my tattoo (maybe not the rib cage piece but a small one) -learn to speak Russian -grow out my nails -do more community service -get a word of the day calender -find a bikini i feel confident in (wear it to the beach) -learn to break dance -quit caffiene -take a spinning class Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Better of Dead by New Found Glory

(4 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

April 11th, 2007

11:30 pm - "Are you sure you're alright?" ..."Yeah, I'm always alright." So I have a field trip to go to in approximately nine hours and although it's slightly out of character for me to care about physical appearance...i have no idea what i'm gonna wear and that's majorly PISSING me OFF!!! Also Bones wasn't on tonight so I was forced to watch the Pussycat dolls show...I'm so glad they finally got rid of that tranny Anastasia...she's so scary. I also really liked the song selection they had so Big Spender has been stuck in my head for the last to hours... So today Des and I went to Starbucks to get some Passion Fruit Teas and we were in the car talking about how every day feels the same as the day before it...I know that it sounds ridiculous but maybe other people can relate. Lately every conversation i have with someone feels exactly the same as what we always talk about. Every relationship feels stuck in the obligatory "what are you doing after graduation?" or "i got so trashed this weekend" style. I can't honestly think of an interesting or new conversation that I've had with my friends. Talking to my friends has become a chore. It's almost like we're graduating so we have nothing left to say to each other. They're not the kind of friends who stop to ask how your day went or what you've been up to. We mostly talk pop culture or make jokes but we never talk about anything meaningful. I realized it's because no one wants to cause drama, but at this point I'm pretty much dying for real human interaction. There are things in my life that I hide from people. There are things in my life I'd rather not talk about. There's things about me that other people would ridicule. Everyone feels like that, I think. The problem is we all need some one to talk to that doesn't mind our weird quirks. It kills me that my friends can't do that. I feel like I have to walk on egg shells, because I'm scared that they'll exploit whatever flaw i have anad act like I'm a leper. I'll give an example that will sound vague to most. There's this reltionship i have that is slightly beyond normal standards. It's the kind of thing that if I told a lot of people, almost everyone wouldn't get it. It's definatley not a conversation starter. I try to keep it hush because I'm afraid it might get turned into a joke. The thing is there are few people that noticed it. There are a few people who get it. There are a few people who knew something was up and didn't have to be told, but my friends never noticed. The people closest to me never even thought about it and they'd never get it. It pretty much kills me that there are certain parts of my life I can't share. It kills me that I go home everyday feeling like no one gets me because I don't tell them how I really feel. I cannot wait until I go to college because at least then i can start over. i don't think I did it right it high school. I had fun. I learned a lot, but I still feel unhappy. I did everything I wanted to, but I never said what I wanted to say or talked to who I wanted to talk and now I find myself looking back on high school and thinking I wasted my time. Don't get me wrong...i love my friends (and those of you who this doesn't apply to know who you are). Most of them will never read this and i feel absurd even posting it, but I just need more. I don't know what i need, but I know that for the first time in my life nothing is going wrong. No parents breaking up. No bad boyfriends. No death. No tragedy. Even though nothing bad is happening, this is the worst I've felt in years and for the first time I don't know why. Maybe I need a boyfriend. Maybe I need some one who'll always be on my side. Maybe I need some one who doesn't think I'm a freak. Emo, i know. I can't help it. That's what listened to "Hallelujah" by Rufus Wainwright on repeat will do to a person... Current Location: sam's basement Current Mood: drained Current Music: Silent Lucidity by Qeeensryche

(1 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

April 10th, 2007

08:27 pm - The girl’s blood dropped onto his forehead and the Darkness laughed... Sam Winchester: When I told Dad I was scared of the thing in my closet, he gave me a .45. Dean Winchester: What was he supposed to do? Sam Winchester: I was *nine* years old. He was supposed to say, "Don't be afraid of the dark"! Dean Winchester: "Don't be afraid of the dark'"? Are you kidding me? Of course you should be afraid of the dark. You know what's out there! so i haven't posted in forever and a day and i decided (with a little help from the Yeti) that today was a good day to start writing again. Lately I've taken a break from LJ to focus on more fiction oriented writing...mainly Dark Angel fan fictions and this really bad coming of age story I'm writing that seems to be going nowhere fast. I've also been pretty busy doing nothing which makes for some pretty boring stories. So because i can't think of anything important or insightful to write, here is an inventory of what my life's like lately and then a bunch of pictures of things that have been keeping me happy during my long LJ hiatus: - applied and got into my top choice school (Boston University) which i will be attending in the fall - became a legal adult - starred as Medea's murderous Conscience in the play by Euripedes - 17 class days away from graduating high school - got the role of The Wicked Witch of the West in The Wizard of Oz - lost a lot of friends because i decided i'd rather watch soaps with Sam and eat scones with Dilila than go to parties - purchased lovely pale yellow prom dress and grew out hair to impossibly ridiculous lengths - made several new friends and got closer to old ones in the forms of Yeti, Becky, Regina, Katie Carney, Michael Carney, Darrin and Ferells - lost a lot of friends that I didn't really need (and weren't really helping me become the best version of myself) - decided to quit my job in favor of a job closer to my personality such as a record store, librarian, or lab technician - vowed to learn and understand Chemistry before going to college - took a Yoga-lates class and didn't die - wore a dress on stage - got really into Supernatural, Dark Angel, Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Bones - attempted to read an anime graphic novel and failed miserably - learned that I am the least domestic person on the planet (and subsequently that pasta can in fact burn) - read sixteen books on werewolves and decided they're sexier than vampires - wasted the last six months doing everything to advance my future and nothing to make myself feel good which has left me slightly indifferent to the world, but also less anxious and paranoid than the last 17 years of my life ( If You Don't Like Your Ideas...Stop Having Them ) Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: Brothers on a Hotel Bed by Death Cab for Cutie

(4 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

March 25th, 2007

11:21 am I am accepted to BU!!! I no longer have to work at SubVilla the rest of my life.... Current Mood: excited

(2 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

March 12th, 2007

(1 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

December 10th, 2006

09:18 pm - Do you think if Bill Gates got laid in high school, do you think there'd be a Microsoft? ( This homeless guy asked me for money the other day. I was about to give it to him and then I thought he was going to use it on drugs or alcohol. And then I thought, that's what I'm going to use it on. Why am I judging this poor bastard. ) Current Mood: angry

(2 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

November 26th, 2006

10:47 pm - Copulation between X5 452 and myself successful, Ma'am. Twice. I just got a new mood theme made by staranis @ lj it's Alec from Dark Angel and i pretty much love it... This week was like a 5 day weekend, because of Thanksgiving. It went well this year. The food was good. I ate at Diane's and my Dad's. then we went to Erica's for desert. Me, her and Steve went to the movies and saw the Tenacious D movie which was surprisingly funny. Then most of the weekend was spent finishing college business and watching Dark Angel with Sam. Friday me and my mom went to the mall and bought all my Christmas presents and let me say...i'm stoked. I got some good shit. I also got a new winter coat. It's a pea coat, but it's got the Boondocks Saints Prayer in the inseam. It's awesome but it hasn't been cold enough to wear it yet. Oh well. Worked a couple of times this week. It's been pretty good lately. Oh well I gotta go finish my MLK Jr. Scholarship Essay. Peace <3 check out my mood theme! Current Mood: creative Current Music: Fool the World by Hazen Street

(2 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

October 1st, 2006

(unsuspecting town folk)

September 23rd, 2006

(unsuspecting town folk)

September 18th, 2006

11:26 pm - But when we leave this year we won't be coming back... Vote On Which Senior Picture I should put in the Yearbook!! Please... ( Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round? Will these memories fade when I leave this town? ) Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: graduation song by vitamin c

(12 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

September 4th, 2006

(1 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

(2 massacred | unsuspecting town folk)

(unsuspecting town folk)

12:50 am To all the ones who tried the most! Was I supposed to cheer your efforts? Sorry that I chose so poorly. Golly, Gee, am i the poster girl? She's the kind of girl who looks for love in all the lonely places. The kind who comes to poker pockets stuffed with kings and aces. She's the kind of girl who only asks you over when its raining... Just to make you lie there catching water dripping from the ceiling. Lift your hats, Off to the checkout girls with tattooed backs! They'd make an angels skin crawl If you ask them for assistance There's an even chance You'll get a number. To all the girls at pearl, the surly boys who get to masticate them... I've a prize for each and every one of you so just be patient. To all the ones that hated me the most a toast You really had me Going! For a second i was nervous Boy am I the poster girl? She's the kind of girl who gets her slings and arrows from the dumpster. The kind who tell you she's bipolar just to make you trust her. She's the kind of girl who leaves out condoms on the bedroom dresser... Just to make you jealous of the men she fucked before you met her.... To all the ones who thought they knew me best a test to prove your prowess!! Who was mine in '99 i want last names and current status!! To all the ones who hated me the most a toast you really had me going for second... I was nervous boy am I the poster girl For some suburban sickness? Better keep a healthy distance. Now its up to you know what to do It's pretty dirty business! Current Location: bed Current Mood: dirty Current Music: Dirty Business by The Dresden Dolls

(unsuspecting town folk)